If you really knew me.. :/
If you really knew me.. you’d know that I love animals. :)
If you really knew me.. you’d know that I listen to Simple plan and I’m judged for that.
If you really knew me.. you’d know that people bully me every day.
If you really knew me.. you’d know that I cut.
If you really knew me.. you’d know that I have depression.
If you really knew me.. you’d know that I cry every night..
If you really knew me.. you’d know that I started cutting at age 11.
If you really knew me.. you’d know that I’m very shy.
If you really knew me.. you’d know that I have only 3 friends.
If you really knew me.. you’d know that I fake a smile every day..
If you really knew me.. you’d know that many people calls me with names like: ugly,fat,emo,depressed,boring.. :(
If you really knew me.. you’d know that I hate myself & my life.
If you really knew me.. you’d know that I think everyone’s beautiful. :)
If you really knew me.. you’d know that I hate when someone lies, but I lie too. :/
If you really knew me.. you’d know that I’m a pessimist. :3
If you really knew me.. you’d know that I love the Janoskians. :D
Well, this is it. :)
life’s so unfair :(
Sometimes what may seem as a joke to some can be an insult to others.
Slit your wrists and cut your thighs. Fake a smile and dry your eyes. Hate yourself and hate your life. Welcome to my world of lies.
Sometimes the person who tries to keep everyone happy is the most lonely person.
Swimming<3!!
People dont swim because its fun. Ask any swimmer, most of them hate it, but they couldnt imagine their life with out it. Its part of them, its something they live for. They live for the 5 a.m practices, pasta partys, cheers, long bus rides, invitationals, countless swim caps, chlorine, and coaches you hate but appreciate later. They live for the way it feels when you beat the person next to you by a tenth of a second and you know those 2 extra laps you did in practice were worth it. You live for the way you jump every time you hear a buzzer, or the way you scream whenever you hear the gun on the 500, even though you hear it every time. You live for the way you celebrate when you get to do a set with fins. You live for the way you become a family with your team, and no one understands what happens within that pool or locker room, but you. You live for the countless songs you sing in your head when your swimming those laps. You live for the people who scream at you while your swimming even though all you hear is BLAH BLAH BLAH. You live for the competition, you live for the friends, you live for the practice, you live for the pain, its a part of you. You are a swimmer <3!
Everyday I’m unhappy, There’s going to be a day when I can’t take it anymore..
I wish I could fade away, I’m pretty sure no one would notice or care.
